Ever since I've been back from my honeymoon I've been job searching. For me, this is something very much out of my comfort zone. I'm not huge on talking about myself especially in ways that I feel is almost bragging. The idea behind this is basically trying to sell yourself to a company. Which is just awkward.
Applying for and interviewing for jobs seems so weird to me. I understand that you have to try and give the potential employer your skills and history and a taste of who you are. But it all seems so meaningless. I can't tell you in fifteen minutes, a half hour, or even a whole day who I am. Why you should hire me? You have to see it for yourself. I could say all kinds of things to trick someone into hiring me and totally be lying. Not that I do. But I could. It all seems so ridiculous.
Plus, in this technological age (and this is coming from a computer nerd!) my application and resume get lost in a sea of others. A piece of paper with my skills on it. It's people judging me on what I have accomplished and what I know rather than who I am and what I can do in the future. It messes with my brain and I have to try REALLY hard to remember that my identity is not in the job I have or what these potential employers think of me. That isn't where my worth is. But how hard is it to not think that when you're basically giving someone a rundown of your personality and skills and asking them to tell you if you're good enough. Absurd!
Even though the whole process is foreign to me and this is the first time I've had to do it I have obtained a job! On the 31st I start down at Elks Rehab as a medical scanner. I'm excited to be doing something new. In all honesty, I'm excited to be doing anything at all. I've been so bored. It will be part time and temporary, but I'm excited just to get my foot in the door.
I have a hard time finding value in the processing part of life. I like results. So this time of not working has been hard for me... for the reasons I mentioned above and just trying to be patient. Not to mention the fact that I'm a workaholic. But I have learned quite a bit. I'm excited to see what's in store for me :)
Friday, October 21, 2011
Tuesday, October 04, 2011
Settling In
So... I'm married now. The question people have been asking me lately is 'how's married life?' I'm not really sure what kind of answer people are looking for when they ask this. I mostly just say 'really good'. I think it's just something people feel the need to ask without REALLY wanting an answer. Oh culture.
But the truth is that married life IS going really well. Everyone tells you that being married is never what you think it's going to be. That you can't really anticipate what it will be like. So Travis and I were expecting that. But really marriage is more like we thought it was going to be then we thought it was going to be. If you can follow that. haha. It was a really natural progression. Granted it's only been a few weeks. But it's been fabulous! The hardest thing to do when we were engaged (at least for me) was to part at night. And now we don't have to. It isn't weird to live with a guy, which is what lots of women say. We're settling in and it's just really nice.
Obviously we have a lot of growing to do and we're both excited about that. God put us together for a purpose and right now we're praying and sorting out what that looks like for this time in our life. We're excited to work for God as a team and be stretched in our faith while growing in unity with HIM and each other. It's just finally nice to be together all the time. It's much easier to stay on the same page and be unified.
Plus, there's the fun of learning each others little quirks. haha. One of the first nights we got back from our honeymoon we were making the bed. I started jumping on the bed and Travis soon joined in. "Who let us be adults?" Travis asked and I just laughed. As much as we have and are growing up I hope that we never lose the silliness. I honestly believe that it helps a person to not take themselves too seriously. I'm super blessed to be married to man who finds the value in silliness. I love laughing :)
But the truth is that married life IS going really well. Everyone tells you that being married is never what you think it's going to be. That you can't really anticipate what it will be like. So Travis and I were expecting that. But really marriage is more like we thought it was going to be then we thought it was going to be. If you can follow that. haha. It was a really natural progression. Granted it's only been a few weeks. But it's been fabulous! The hardest thing to do when we were engaged (at least for me) was to part at night. And now we don't have to. It isn't weird to live with a guy, which is what lots of women say. We're settling in and it's just really nice.
Obviously we have a lot of growing to do and we're both excited about that. God put us together for a purpose and right now we're praying and sorting out what that looks like for this time in our life. We're excited to work for God as a team and be stretched in our faith while growing in unity with HIM and each other. It's just finally nice to be together all the time. It's much easier to stay on the same page and be unified.
Plus, there's the fun of learning each others little quirks. haha. One of the first nights we got back from our honeymoon we were making the bed. I started jumping on the bed and Travis soon joined in. "Who let us be adults?" Travis asked and I just laughed. As much as we have and are growing up I hope that we never lose the silliness. I honestly believe that it helps a person to not take themselves too seriously. I'm super blessed to be married to man who finds the value in silliness. I love laughing :)
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