personality types, end of november

I've gotten bad at posting again :(

November is almost over which means the end of NaNoWriMo. I've been really, really thankful for it this month. It has kept my mind off of other things. It's getting down to the wire. I have 7,000 odd words left to type. This last Sunday I wrote 10,000 words which was freakin' amazing. seriously. I've been loving the productiveness that is coming from writing a novel. I'm still going...

about that "other" thing. I did in fact have that heart to heart i needed to. Only it kinda ended up being just my heart and then some yelling. Not how i wanted it to go, but what can you do. This person has been basically lying to me (if not directly then by omission) for a while now :( It's not a good situation. But, strangely enough i have been able to kind of put it past me and move on faster than i thought. I've been doing good. In the past I have been somewhat notorious for wallowing in situations that go bad with this person. I'm proud of me for this!

The New Moon premiere was fun. A small group of us went and I enjoyed the movie. There were things I did and didn't like about the movie, but overall it was good. It's weird to me that just a year ago twilight came out. It's been quite the year...

I took the Jung Typology test and got INTJ (introverted,Intuitive,thinking,judging) which is really good at describing me, like scarily good. If you would like to take the test visit: http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp it's pretty interesting.

Half Way

A lot has happened since I last posted. So, I will try to just summarize:

I lost a filling. I was writing for NaNoWriMo, and of course eating snacks, and popped a filling. So not good. I have an appointment of Tuesday for a consultation. Hopefully they'll be able to just re-fill my tooth. Right now it's pretty much just annoying.

It's the half-way point of NaNoWriMo and I'm right on track at 25,055 words. I really wish I was ahead, but being on track is good. Like I've said before, I am a notorious procrastinator. So really, being on track is good. I almost kind of feeling like I'm missing out on the NaNoWriMo experience by not being behind. Part of the whole thing is being stressed out, pushing yourself to your potential. I haven't really been that stressed yet. I've had days where I haven't wanted to write, but I haven't been stressed yet. I need to get a day's worth of words ahead on my word count, because on Thursday I am going to the New Moon premiere. I'm probably not going to be writing that day.

My birthday! It was fun. I spent my actual birthday looking cute and watching the BSU vs. Vandals game at the ram. Then I came home and watched Grey's Anatomy (and because of this crying!). It was pretty great. I like when I'm not the one being focused on. Then I had a really good talk with Jeanine. Then I had a horrible talk with a boy. The boy actually. The one I've been wanting to let go of forever and just can't seem to. This is the same boy I've been talking about needing to let go of forever. I love him, and it's freakin' hard. But I have been letting go of him, or at least trying. We talked last night, and although it didn't go exactly like I wanted it to, at least he knows I'm serious about letting him go, about moving on. So we'll see how that goes. I'm like 85% sure I can do it. Even though I know I need to let him go, and it's been pathetically too long,it still hurts. It always hurts. I just really,really, hope i can move on this time.

Today, I went to my parents house and had a little party. Kayla came over too, which was great. We ate, played games, and just talked. I'm really exited because my parents bought me tickets to go see Relient K and TobyMac in concert. It's going to be awesome! I also got money for books,undies,a journal,and some money from my parents. Even though I wasn't looking forward to this birthday just because of the whole age thing, it's been really fun. Even with the whole boy thing. I have a great family and great friends :)


NaNoWriMo words: 20,055

Days to New Moon premiere: 4

a day full of brunch

So... it's like 1:00 in the morning and I'm heading to bed right after this. Today I woke up and went to my parents house to have brunch with them, my sister, and her boyfriend. I was actually really nice and per usual my mom made way too much food. Then I kind of just stuck around. I had so much to do today but I just stayed. My sister had plans to die my mom's hair and we had to go pick up hair dye. I decided to have her do mine too and now my hair is a nice auburn color! so yay for that. It took awhile, we just took our time. I actually had a lot of fun hanging out with them today. Not that my family isn't interesting it's just that usually I would rather be doing something else. My sister and I got along pretty well and we even had a few laughing fits. We talked about things we used to do as kids. We focused on the positive. It mostly consisted of us chatting about our weird movie tastes as kids. For instance some of our favorites included: The Dark Crystal,Happily Ever After,Fern Gully, Little Nemo,and Hocus Pocus. Yeah, we were strange children.

I came home with the need to clean house, vlog, and write. I ended up writing )though not as much as I wanted), watching Grey's Anatomy, and straightening my hair. Fail on the vlogging. Hopefully things will go smoothing for that tomorrow. Seriously, I am crossing my fingers.

As far as NaNoWriMo goes, I am slowing down considerably. I was on such a role! I'm still ahead, just not where I wanted to be. I really wanted to be half way done by tonight. It was nice to find out through all my pep talks that the second week is infamously the worst one. So, I am not alone. Tomorrow I plan on having a very productive writing/cleaning night. Hopefully it will go as planned. I think part of the reason the second week is so hard is that you've moved past introducing your character and have started the plot, but you get caught up on gaining momentum to move the plot to the end of the story. At least this is the case with me. My middle of the story is lagging in content. It's the "everything's happy" part of the story that is kind of hard to show. I want to just skip ahead to the conflict and then resolve it. But, i have character's personalities to build and get to know you's to do. That is the middle section. So not as fun as the beginning or end!

Also, the chartjackers song came out today! I'm really excited to see how it does. Even if it doesn't make it into the charts at least money is going to charity. To be perfectly honest I really do adore the song though! It's pretty awesome :) If you don't know what I'm talking about visit http://www.youtube.com/ChartJackersProject to find out more. It's a great story of how the internet community can come together for good! You can find "I've Got Nothing" the ChartJacker's single on itunes.

okay, for realsies now I'm heading to bed!

NaNoWriMo word count: 19,233 (still fairly awesome)

Days to my birhtday: 6

remember remember the fifth of november

I am currently watching V for Vendetta. I love that movie. It's so fitting seeing that it is the fifth of November.

Tonight I had a kind of write-a-thon though I only wrote 4,000 words. It works. I would have really liked to write 2,000 more. But I also really wanted to watch this movie. The movie won out.

I hung out in blogtv with Dr.Noise tonight also. Which was really fun. There were only about 40 people in the chat so I could actually talk. It was a nice change. I've never really listened to his music before but he is really talented. I'll have to look more into it. :)

I've actually been getting more sleep since I started NaNoWriMo which doesn't make any sense at all. Seriously. I think that writing this much makes me emotionally drained, therefore I go to bed a little earlier and sleep well. That's the only explanation I can think of.

On my lunch break I saw something horrible. A teen boy (my guess is around 14) was riding a bike without any helmet. This in and of it's self is bad. But he was also toting what I assume is his little brother on his bike. The kid was around two and was sitting on the handle bars. He wasn't wearing a helmet either. I was speechless. It makes me sick. I wanted to take that child. I just don't understand. To me, not wearing a helmet while riding a bike is more dangerous than not wearing your seatbelt in your car. At least in your car you have a buffer from the road. It scares me. He was biking down a very busy road and crossing traffic. I think riding your bike without a helmet should be illegal. Not cool.

NaNoWriMo word count: 16,091 (and it's only day five!)

days to my birthday:9

days to New Moon premiere:15

November is a good month :)

too tired...

I'm too tired to post tonight even though I want to :( so, i'm going to keep it really short. I did my 2,000 words today. It took me a long time and I kinda had to force it, but I made it. yay! going to bed now. I have to be at work at 7am and it is currently 12:26 am. It's going to be great. Write-a-thon tomorrow night :)


NaNoWriMo word count: 12,011

oh the crazyness!

So... it's three days into NaNoWriMo and I'm doing great. I never thought it would be this easy to just write. I've tried (not very hard) before to write but I could never do it. You know why? because I'm a perfectionist. I wanted my writing to sound like the perfect novel right out of my brain. I know that's not how it works, but that's how I wanted it to work. NaNoWriMo has given me permission to suck. It's about getting ideas and words on to paper, not writing a publishable novel. This is much easier than I ever would have guessed. So far the story is flowing pretty well. There have been no major hang-ups. But then again it is only the third day. There's plenty of time for that.

Writing this novel is taking over my life though. First off, I have a very addictive personality. I like to dive into things fully and get them done fast and efficiently. I like to bask in every facet of the chosen obsession. So, writing this novel is driving me a little crazy. I'm trying to keep up with other people's word counts. Any time I am not doing anything all I can think about is how i should be working on my novel. Take right now for instance. I'm writing this blog post to help calm me down a little. Well, that and partly because strangely once I start writing I only want to write more. But, pretty much all I can think about as i type this is how great it would be if this many more words were going into my novel. I'm going to be an expert typist after this. Maybe I'll get a job as a secretary :) It's funny because before I started writing I thought I would be procrastinating a bunch. That is my usual way. But so far I've been very ahead. For like the first time ever in my life. It's a good feeling.

This month, besides being NaNoWriMo, also contains my birthday (I'll be 22), the New Moon premiere, and (of course) Thanksgiving! It's going to be a crazy month! That is all for now, thanks for letting me talk (or write rather) your ear off!

NaNoWriMo words: 9,068

Day to my birthday:11

NaNoWriMo

So... today I spent the majority of my time writing. Heck, this is my second blog post of the day. I'm a writing machine! haha. Seriously though, i thought getting the words to flow would be harder. But there's no pressure to write well so that's a plus. There's only pressure to write. I have successfully writen 4,514 words of my 50,000 today. So, that's pretty good. The average word count is 1,667. So, as of now I'm ahead of the game. I just have to keep truckin'. Here's my problem. I'm feeling in the writing mood. And I am really scared that if I go to sleep, i'll lose motivation. I don't know why. I just have a feeling. I'm so in the zone of writing right now that I'm afraid sleeping, getting up, and working will knock me out of the zone and I'll freeze up and fall behind. However, I am now putting a story to paper that I've been writing in my head for years. The basic plot is there. Some of the conversations and things have been thought over so many times that putting them to life isn't going to be a problem at all. And so far the words have just flowed. But I don't want to get out of the groove. I want to win. I want to finish this novel. it's a big deal to me. I wish I could just lock myself up for like a week and do nothing but write- i'm sure i'd get pretty far. I like counting the words. When I started this I had no idea how addicting the writing would be. I should have known. I have a very addictive personality. How could I not get caught up in this. Hopefully, I will stay motivated *crosses fingers* cause I need to sleep. NEED to. I'm still sick and I do want to get better. I should have gone to bed like an hour ago. But now that I have vented I am going to bed so, goodnight. Thanks for listening to my rant :)

NaNoWriMo count: 4,514!!!

Halloween and pre-writing

I'm hurriedly typing this because I really REALLY need to start writing on my NaNoWriMo novel. But for some reason I felt the need to blog first. Maybe to put my mind at rest before I start in on my novel. Halloween was really fun. I helped my mom plan this big party and had this really awesome costume:



I am a zombie bride. I was really excited about this costume and it turned out pretty freakin awesome!

Kayla and I went to help my mom set up for the party and help with food. Then we came back to my house and got ready. Thanks so much to Kayla because she basically saved my hair for the costume. I fail at curling hair. haha. We arrived at my parent house with plenty of time to spare and set up music. I've been sick this week so my head was pounding. I took some meds though and got to feeling pretty good after I had a few drinks. I turned to Kayla about mid way in the party (we were sitting on the couch) and said "I don't know why I thought this was going to be fun". We had virtually done nothing and we didn't really know anyone. There was only one game planned (pull an apple off a string that is hanging from a tree). This is not the way I usually plan parties. But I was only helping. Kayla, my sister, her boyfriend, their roomate, and I found ourselves upstairs and playing cards. I love cards and so far that was the funnest part of the night. After that we headed back down stairs and the dancing begun. I'm not a big club/hip-hop music dancing kinda girl. I perfer techno/dancy music that i can jump up and down and twirl to. haha. but it was fun. If you know me you know I'm pretty crazy sometime and as proved last night I get that from my mom. haha. but it was awesomely fun! I did however, over exert myself and ended having quite a few coughing fits. Out of that I ended up with a bruised rib. *sigh* but it was worth it. Kayla and I came back to my house and watched Hocus Pocus and then went to bed. All in all it was an awesome night :)

NaNoWrimo word count:0!!!! I am leaving to go write write write! wish me luck! my couch is becoming my home for the next month.